i shall say everything i want today. The bomb sets off today.. i can't be bothered if this ruin our friendship.. I no longer wanna bear this stress..

But first who will fucking want a 8 year friendship to be gone like that.. U dun like this situation huh? u think u were the only one suffering in this situation.. How bout me? Have u ever tot bout it? blogging all those stuff? i keep quiet bout things doesn't means i see or feel nth.. u know how many fuckin times i cried about this.. It makes me feels like giving up trying..

i knew i'm a coward..
i dunno how to express myself..
i ran away from the problem that leads to a bigger one now..
therefore the tension rise..
now i'm here stuck in this stupid corner that i could hardly breathe..

I know u think that i made new friends and dun wan u.. the truth is i feel that all your shows are more impt when we first got internet? When i made new friends i tot i could gave u plenty of time to watch them.. Instead of staying at dinner chats u went back home for your shows.. that's y we distance ourselves.. Also, we distant b'cos you dun seems to have any interest in any topic we had..

i got ONE thing to say.. i dun wanna make thing worst.. there isn't any need to be angry at each other.. these happens because we jus have a different living habits and we were jus trying to compromise with each other.. neither of us is trying hard enough.. and we ain't communicating enough.. i hope this explain y we had turn out to be this way.. I hope u feel wat i feel..

I'm sorry that i din know that u actually would like to cook lunch and dinner for everyone.. and i actually took the chore to myself.. Anything else u feel like doing u shld actually say instead of always saying "u were fine with things" or "anything"

{ySunday, July 08, 2007y}